nope nope nope

He walked swiftly up to her with a happy expression on his face, his usual greeting for her, but this time... it was different. He was different. he gave her his usual kisses on her cheek and neck, their closeness went beyond the sex they sometimes had, they were.... friends and she loved it that way. They pulled away from that initial embrace and before she knew it she gave him a kiss right on the lips, it felt very bold and unlike her, would he be upset? But he held it for a moment and as they separated they gave each other a warm look that solidified to her that it was okay.

Then thats when it really changed. A short girl in bright pink skinny jeans, she couldn't have been over 15, walks up to them with a hopeful look on her face. She asked if he was the singer of the headlining band for the evening, he nodded his head, shook her hand and asked her name. I found myself locking eyes with her and i could see the inquisitive look on her face. "Is this your new girlfriend?"

I froze dead in my tracks, I couldn't breathe and I opened my mouth to spit out "no no no no we are just friends" but for two simple reasons those words never came out. For one, she had seen us kiss just now and it wasn't a "hey missed yah buddy" kiss either and two he beat me to the punch.

"Why yes it is. This is *******."

Vomit? Fainting? Unable to breathe? I didn't know what to feel or say, I was NOT his girlfriend, far from and even though it had crossed my mind those fantasies never left my bedroom walls. They took a picture and as the girl skipped off to join her friends I grabbed his wrist as soon as her back was turned. "What are you doing? I, I, I... you scared me!"

He found that hilarious for some twisted reason. He kissed my cheek again as a sign of comfort. "Just play along... it'll make the evening more interesting."

A wave of adrenaline rushed through my blood and I realized that this was a dream come true, after two years of having a dumb crush on this guy he wanted to play, well if that is what he wanted then she was going to take advantage of it. She grabbed his hand tightly, interlocking their fingers and spoke with a softness that surprised even herself.

"Well then, we better sell it."

Election Day.

I voted of course, as if I have every had the ability to keep my opinions to myself. What's amazing is how much can change in such a small time frame and how my entire life switches around every couple of months, I can't tell if I am pleased with this pattern or not. Oh well. Four days with blessthefall this month. Two weeks in New York with everyone for Christmas and New Years. 

Cheers.

Minus Sign

The internet has the power to trip my head, make me feel negative and bring me down. But only if I am on it for like 8 hours, which actually might be the case today, how terrifying for me.


I HATE to admit it, but I think I want to meet a guy. I think I want to start brand new with someone. Meet them for the first time and take all the steps correctly.


I am in desperate need of doing something correct right now.



Alesana soon. That could make me feel way better or way worse.

Summary

I feel like my life can be summed up in photos of me and the people that I enjoy being around. I wish I took more photos. The sun shines SO much brighter here.







I hope good influence continues to rub off on me.